Life is short.. my realizations after I lost people close to me.

At a young age, I already had an idea that people around me including me would eventually die and perish in this world. I sometimes cry and imagine that my parents would someday leave us. I can’t imagine the pain that I will experience if that happens.

My first experience I lost someone so close to me was wayback 2012, my grandfather died due to stroke, and it was very sudden that we are not prepared for it to happen. It happened in a typical day of ours, I was talking to my grandfather about something, while I was doing my morning exercise. He ask me to get some toilet papers and I was telling him that I would do it later since I was still doing my exercise routine. After working out I forget to do what my grandfather asked me to do and go straight at my computer and do some stuffs, when suddenly I heard my mother shout that my grandfather suddenly fell down on the ground unconscious, I rush outside to check on him, he was not responding and all we can do is talk to him and expect to get some response while waiting for the ambulance to come and pick him up. My grandfather was in ICU for 7 days, unfortunately he was not able to recover from the stroke and died. It was very sad, my relationship to him was very strong, we always talked, I ask him about his experience about his life, we would joke around, eat some snacks together, and watch some tv shows.

I can say back then that maybe it was already his time since he was already old, and he already lived his life. He already saw his children have their own family, and also spent his time with his grandchildren.

My second experience I lost someone so dear to me was wayback 2016, when my aunt died due to cancer. I can say that this was the hardest thing that happened to me and my family. My aunt was very close to us, she was the older sister of my father, she would visit us occasionally in our house and would spend a night or two. We usually talk for hours and she would always tell us stories about their childhood memories with my father and with my other aunt. I would always listen to her even if I already heard the story. It was very hard for me to move on back then because when she was sick I was away working. I was not able to help take care of her while she was in the hospital.

I realized back then that life is very short, sometimes the people that we don’t expect to get sick get sick. Life is so unpredictable, we should always spend our time to the people that are important to us, show our love, and affection, because we don’t know when our time comes.

After the death of my aunt comes the death of some people that are close to me. In a span of 2016 to 2020, I experience the death of my 2 relatives, a former professor in high school, and a friend. And as I write this short blog I lost a brother, a kid that is close to me, we are not blood related though. But I can’t imagine that he would die today, he was very young, had so much potential on his life, then suddenly he was gone. I can’t really understand why it happened.

As my life continues, death is always there to remind me that all of this are temporary, my life, my friends, and my family. Eventually all of us will die, regardless how old, or how young or how healthy we are. What we can do is always be thankful, if we still have time let’s spend it on the people that are important to us, let’s try to be kind, to be humble, and to be a blessing to each other.

Thank you for reading this. I hope you have a wonderful life. God bless